I’m Back!

WOW its been almost…… 6 weeks Yikes!

I’ve taken the past 2 months to enjoy food (maybe a little too much) enjoy some time off from a structured gym plan (never more then 3 days) and catch up on life (but I actually did better with planning and scheduling during contest prep)

I’ll be honest I don’t feel great about how I look right now, but starting today I’m on my off season diet 100% allowing only one day for a cheat meal which I’ve now renamed: my Happy Meal calling it a cheat makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong, happy meal is much nicer.

After my show and the weeks leading up to it I put so much of an emphasis on food, not what I was eating during prep but what I would eat after I was done competing and it seriously screwed me up. I though that having all these things that I couldn’t having for 4 1/2 months would make me happy when I had them but in the end they have made me pretty sad. I always preach a clean eating way of life but I found myself on the other side of that statement and was upset with myself not only because of what I was eating but justifying why I was doing it.

Bad/processed food makes me feel….awful

Good/clean food makes me feel….great

It seems pretty simple right…..wrong

Willpower takes work, serious work day in and day out until it becomes a habit. Once that habit is broken you’ll find yourself back to where you began, only having to work harder to gain that willpower back.

I have about 8 lbs. to loose for me to be at my goal weight, a happy comfortable weight for me. This shouldn’t take me to long to do but now that I’ve been eating whatever I want cravings and temptations are much harder to pass up but I’m pretty focused now and I hope that blogging my way through the off season and into the next prep will help me too.

I have lost of clean recipes to post so stay on the look out….see you tomorrow!